OZINE FEST 2013

Cosplaying/COSPLAY is an art form where anyone (whatever age you may be) may dress up as an animé character.
In the Philippines, cosplay has been a major part of some teenage lives as it lets them show their love and passion for animé. Also, it allows them to show off creativity as they engage themselves to thinking of how a costume is gonna look pleasing and very alike of those what they see on TV.

Here are some photos of a very good friend of mine Ackire who has been been cosplaying for the past couple of years.
This year, when she joined the Ozine Fest, she chose to be Sakura Kinomoto from Card Captor Sakura.

Photo By: Ivan Cantaros

BIPOLAR IN A DAY

I just thought before starting my long night, I'm gonna tell you something about today. (This story actually occurs quite a lot of times so.. hehe.)

Has anyone felt like their mood in the morning completely changes during the latter of the day? That was what I'm on. It was probably because I didn't get enough sleep or maybe my randomness occurred.

I hope everyone is having a good start! Let's make this week awesome.

I'm lazy.

I know, I am! And it's annoying me. Haha!
What has been happening to me?

1.) I'm gonna study a certificate in a college this year. It's part-time. I'm a bit scared but it should be fine, I suppose.

2.) I chose Communications as my degree. It's not final (WHAT IS FINAL TO ME?) but I think it is for me. I just have to take time and do stuff in it and see how I goes.

3.) I'm 18 now! I'm happy. I think it was quite a tradition that people change or think like they're different when they turn 18. I'm not really sure if I'm under a transition or I'm still living like I was 16, 17. I'm happy though about it because I can do stuff I couldn't do when I was younger.

4.) I'm gonna bleach my hair again. The first time I've tried it with a friend days ago, it didn't quite work, although, I liked the outcome. Next week, I'm bleaching it again and apply colour purple.

5.) Magazines attract me so much especially my favourite "Frankie."

I'm really looking forward to meeting new people and doing so much this year.

Bye! :)

12-12-12

(Just assume that I posted this on the 12th of December 2012)
I wrote this on 12-12-12. It was on my desktop and I forgot to put this up here. Bunch of random thoughts.

12.12.12

I just thought, I have to do something different this day (Not put a status or tweet about it though!) Maybe, blog? As all living humans know, this day would be the last that we’d see repetitive dates. I’m glad I’m still alive, I’m glad I witnessed 1.1.1 , 2.2.2 , so on until 12.12.12. (Whilst writing this, I still have no idea what this blog post should be about.)

When I woke up from an afternoon nap, Mum gave me a letter. It’s so fanceeeey. It’s from QUT, what do I expect? It’s from their Engineering department and I was really amazed by it! And now I’m starting about Engineering. Goodness! When am I going to decide?!!!!

Last week was the first birthday of my laptop and 3^rd year of my phone. I would like to thank them for always being there in times of loneliness, pain, anger, etc.

I like this guy. His name starts with R. I shall elaborate this on my next next next post! (But from the day that I wrote this, my feeling slowly became upset).

Coolio, are you?

You’re cool. What does this phrase really mean to me? Mean to us? Personally, I think being ‘cool’ is something extraordinary. Extraordinary in my eye, of course! Maybe helping someone in a good way or figuring out something in a not so easy way. Yep, they’re cool. I just don’t understand why other people think they are one when they actually hurt or step on other’s foot. Let me share you a story. I’m not sure if it’s lame but that event was the one that provoked me to think about this.

The other day, we (me and the fam without dad) went to the Plaza to grocery shop and buy some awesome stuff. My sister bought the Harry Potter collection and I bought some chocolate. Yaay! After buying those, my sister bought the ingredients she needs for her Home Economics practical assessment. I decided to stay outside the grocery shop because I was asked to look after the other things we bought. I sat there alone. Bored. So I stood up! Oh, an ice cream shop 7 steps from where I was sitting. I bought cookies and cream, a happy kid indeed! When I came back to where I was sitting, a family (mother, daughter, son [I’m assuming they are siblings]) came to have a seat. The girl was about 7 years old and the boy was probably 10. He looked condescending so it made me think that he’s the elder one. Before leaving to go inside the grocery shop, the mother told the two to not shout and don’t ever fight. She left. Both of them were holding a plastic bag. The boy took out a pair of ballet flats; the girl reacted and shouted, “Hey! They’re mine! The boy didn’t do anything. Actually he did! He moved closer to where his sister was sitting. I think it was on her arm? He hit her. And using those pair of ballet flats, he hit her in the head. The girl just kept on shouting on him. He said, “Give me my shirt!” (since the girl was holding a plastic bag with his shirt) She gave it in exchange for her shoes. He held the shirt in his hands but didn’t give the shoes. He went back to his seat holding the flats. She kept on screaming. The boy dropped the shoes on the floor and told his sister. “Look! I don’t have it!” Scream. Scream. Scream from her. He picked up the shoes and using that, he just continually hit her. After every hit, I can sense, he’s trying to look at me so proud as if saying, “Hey, look at me. I’m suuuuuuuuh cool hitting her.” Everytime he tries to appear in my eyes, I deflect my view. NO. YOU ARE NOT COOL. What makes you think that you are some BADASS being so awesome violating your sister’s right to just be silent on the side? Seeing that, I started to question the mother – how did you raise these children? I probably asked the wrong question. How did the society, the people around them define what’s to be proud or not? Disrespectful much? PLEASE. NO.

I’m lucky (like what I always say). Even though I have a brother who’s nearly like that, he’s still a good man. Even though I have this huge gap between me and my parents, I know that I was raised really well and taught how to act privately and publicly. I know I’m that “Hey, I’m cool” person but not in a way that that boy has shown. And even though I know that I am a little bit annoying (I feel it myself!) I know, somehow, I’m cool in my own way.

I love my cool friends – they always there for me, I know that even I annoy them, I still find myself being in that position where I am advised by them and majority of them are God-fearing people. I love my cool sister. She does the same – being with me through ups and downs, taking a photo with our seedy/wacky/whatever face and letting me know that I’m loved.

Before Anything Else

Feeling ko talaga hindi ako makakapag-aral ng mabuti hangga't hindi ko nailalabas 'to eh.

Naiinis ako sobra at dahil sa sobrang inis ko, naiiyak na lang ako. Bakit kaya 'pag ako, iba 'yung trato? 'Pag sa iba, mabuti namang tao. Ganito ba talaga ako? Anong meron? Pinipilit ko naman lahat para maging mabuting anak eh, bakit ba lagi akong nagaganito? Ako 'yung laging mali, ako tanga, ako suwail, ako gago, ako na lahat. Ni wala ngang nakitang maganda sa'kin kahit okay naman ako sa Acads, marami naman akong naachieve kahit sila 'yung laging dahilan kung bakit hindi 'yun natutuloy. Ano kayang mangyayari sa buhay ko na? Minsan parang gusto ko na lang na mawala dito sa mundo pero masama 'yun, alam ko. Sana lang maisip nila 'yung halaga ko, na kahit ganito naman nakakaramdam din ako. Paulit ulit ko namang sinasabi na masakit sa'kin kapag lagi niyang pinapamukha sa'kin na wala siyang pakialam sa'kin ah. Sobrang sakit. At sa tuwing laging may sinasabi sa'kin na hindi maganda na kahit pa sabihin mong pabiro lang, ang sakit sakit. Bakit hindi niya maisip 'yun? :(

Not enough

Another rant. I have loads of schoolwork and other things to stress about. Saying that, I just thought: you don't wanna work hard, might as well do a course with a simple requirement. Yes, I'm seeing myself even further. that I don't really need a job that I will only fail because of my laziness. It's annoying. My actions annoy me but what can I do? I tried to change, many times and still, I'm stuck on this.

Day 7 - Your ex-boyfriend, love, crush

I totally forgot that I entered this challenge! But this is a good comeback. :)
Ex-lover? I can't really tell if he's an ex. I can't make it sure to myself that I don't feel anything for him and neither can I confirm that I have moved from it. Just to be sure for this post though, I think what I'm feeling is nothing. Well, not nothing at all. I feel plain and fine. I'm not into that stuff but in case something gets back, then maybe I'll feel it again (or he will). But yea, I'm going to write about that person. I'll call him Kay.

Hi, Kay! I miss you and I miss you a lot. I blogged about you last time, have you seen it? Yea, you haven't but that's okay. But for the record, not a single neither a thousand even a million blog posts can express how much I am deeply under your spell and not even a single word can explain how much grief I feel for myself, for not giving us a chance. It was a mistake I would never ever ever forget and will always regret. I love you seems to be a cliché but I don't care, I love you.
Damn, have I been showing superb drama here?

I wish some time, maybe if we were really meant together, you will and fate will find our way. I don't wanna talk about the "if not"bit. I don't know how to approach you, I don't know how to talk to you anymore. But if it's really not for us, I'll be happy for you. I miss you. I miss the before. I miss us. I'll miss you. Let destiny hold this for us. BUT I'LL PRAY.

'Til here, AAA. ☺

Weekend General Update

When did I last blog? I can't remember but the past few days had been a roller coaster ride (inspired by the roller coaster I didn't have the guts to ride on @ Seaworld)

So Thursday? I thought the day would just flow fine. But that's just what I thought. A fight happened and I did nothing but walk on our backyard and just do my schoolworks (actually, procrastinate). I checked out blogs, posted photographs, etc. I have no idea how to solve that problem so I remained just like the usual.

Friday, I woke up at 6. IT'S OUR SEAWORLD TRIP! I know I something yet unsolved was there for me, the problem that occurred the day before that but I told myself to just have fun on the day. I couldn't do anything. The whole day, I was with my friends. As I went home, it feels quiet but everyone treated me fine. I went into my room, just checked my twitter and Facebook account then slept at 7:30 PM. I was quite tired that day and the next day of that, I have somewhere to go.

Saturday, I opened my eyes at 7 AM but got up by 8. My father, brother and sister were watching the opening of London Olympics as I woke up. I missed the one for Australia but I didn't miss the one from Philippines. :) It was good. 8-9, I sorted myself out. From 9, I started to walk from our house to the mall where we were suppose to meet. We ate to where we usually eat and as usual, it was soooo good (except for their sauce, it changed!!!) We had fun, basically! As I went home, there the wrong thing goes. Something I can't explain through this post. I wish though as I am writing this, everything is fine. :(

But I don't think those worries should be a hindrance of my heavy school load. I am not really busy, I am just too lazy to update and accomplish everything.

Same Mistake

No, I'm not gonna talk about 1D's song ( I love it though! =))) )

This post is something about Person B or A (I forgot!). She is nice. And then her friend went away for quite some time then opened up something to me. I don't want to be mean so I just went to the flow of everything, just like how we used to talk. I'm pretty sure she has noticed that I was aloof the past few days. But still, I talked to her, laughed with her, shared stories with her. And now, as the title says "Same Mistake" I did it again. She did it again. Her "BEST FRIEND" came back and I was another piece of rubbish again for her, was set aside and waiting when is she gonna cling to me again. But no, I'm really hoping to not be there for her anymore. She doesn't realize what it is to be ignored, to be just a virtual booty-call. The wrong thing I've done perhaps was I went online on Facebook chat (that's when she started talking to me again.)

Almost a "break"

Hopping on my blog to update it whilst waiting the clock to strike 5:00.

Yaaay. It's almost the end of the weekend. No. Actually, I can't consider this as a "weekend" but I've treated it as a weekend! (If that makes sense?) So here's the thing: I'm suppose to do schoolworks but I end up going almost nowhere and finishing almost nothing. This Physics Assessment is quite killing me. I hate how I am so lazy for everything most especially for studying something by myself (so I wish our teacher would realize how hard it is to do an assessment piece that is barely actually, NOT TAUGHT to us Physics student). But I have no choice but do this. And the aftermath of that choice is something good, something I can prove and brag about to myself. I'm cool. I can do this. The writer of this post can kill that Physics because she's awesome. Yes, she surely is.

Changing: That's Goodbye?

Disclaimer: No love/more-than-friends relationship involved within this post.

A friend always has to be a good listener. But does a listener always have to be a friend?

I've listened to much. Why couldn't I be treated as 'the friend?' Did you just use me? Was I just called because you had no one? Or was I just called because I was the only one? I'm not sure but I'm tired. Tired to be a virtual 'booty call', tired waiting when are you gonna need me, tired between everything in our 'friendship.' Or is it?

I have a story here. Almost the same thing but two different people. Pretty sure I'll be talking about the same people again soon within this blog so I'll assign a codename for them. (Okay, now I just can't think of a codename) Okay, Person A and Person B. Let's say Person A is a boy and Person B is a girl.


Person A was a friend. We understand each other, we feel each other's emotions, we are pretty much almost the same. And that similarity of ours made us closer. Closer. Our talks meant so much to me. All the things I thought I was the only one who has been suffering was also felt by her. The feeling was... great! It's nice -- having someone who could understand you! Until a drama hit me, he wasn't valuing me as much as I value him. I almost thought he was the 'best friend' during those times. I almost thought he cares about me as much as I had. But no, everything I thought was just when-I-have-no-one-to-talk-to situation for him. And whenever I see if he has something to tell or share with me, I always fail to feel I was remembered. And most of the time, I don't see myself being acknowledged as something or anything by that person. It sucks, really. Fact, he was feeling this way as well -- that no one cares about him, that he's the one who reaches people, that he wasn't remembered at times, that he doesn't have anyone at all. Well, what the heck? You feel that because you, yourself do it to others, to me who really cared about you.


Is person B still a friend? Who knows? She came to me a while ago and told me that 'she misses me.' Oh well, what can I say? She actually unfollowed me on twitter. I'm just not too sure if that's intentional. Whenever the other friend is not around, there she calls me. Do I need to elaborate? I believe, yes. She has been my friend, has always been my friend. We confide to each other, we share secrets, almost everything! But why is it that I feel this way?


I'd like to thank the both of you. Thank you for once being a friend. Well, we'll still be friends but I'm not gonna be the one who is a reserve, waiting for you when you need me. Thank you for making me feel so awesome, so grateful of having you as friends.
I'm sorry. Sorry 'cause I won't make it up to the next time. Sorry 'cause I won't be around when you have no one. Sorry 'cause I'm not gonna be reaching upon you anymore.
I wish though that can do all of this.


So, I suppose this covers the entire drama? Bye.