My Healthy Routine

I know there are other people like me who thinks that they are so unhealthy even though they are a bit skinny. Here, I am going to tell some of my healthy routine.

But before I start, please note that I am not advocating about losing weight or striving hard to have the "perfect" body. NO. Every body is perfect. Being fat is perfect. Being skinny is perfect. BUT BEING UNHEALTHY? NOT EVEN CLOSE!

1. When eating, if you think that you're feeling okay (not too hungry and not too full) already, leave it there (maybe?) Being too full is probably the source of not having a good stomach during the day.

2. If you're stomach is already feeling bad, it might be because you haven't ingested gas or moved bowels yet. But if it continues, drink TEA.
Tea is my favourite. But if you're planning to be a tea-lover (without the stomachache), I would suggest that you don't drink it right after a meal. I've read quite a bit about this and I found out that if you drink hot tea after a meal, your body will find it hard to absorb nutrients, or worse, not be able to absorb any nutrients. Drink it an hour or two after eating.

3. It's inevitable to feel hungry. Snack! Snack! Snack! Grab a yoghurt, put some bananas or apples in there!

4. Who won't suggest this? WATER! What I've noticed these days was that people are always relying to sodas. I'm not saying that this is bad but we have to maintain the water level in our body because it doesn't just help us digest food and create energy, it also helps the blood keep its liquid consistency. What else does water do in our body? I could go for a day naming them!

5. Walking, as everybody said is a form of exercise. Stretch your muscles and go for a walk. Don't keep yourself in front of the computer or laptop screen all day. Maybe if you're going to the supermarket, park to the space that's not too close to the market's entrance?

These are just some of my usual healthy pattern. I know some of them are typical but I'm still encouraging you guys to at least, try and do this. Being healthy is being awesome!

BIPOLAR IN A DAY

I just thought before starting my long night, I'm gonna tell you something about today. (This story actually occurs quite a lot of times so.. hehe.)

Has anyone felt like their mood in the morning completely changes during the latter of the day? That was what I'm on. It was probably because I didn't get enough sleep or maybe my randomness occurred.

I hope everyone is having a good start! Let's make this week awesome.

Defining size? Size is a definition?

I was checking out Huffington Post (one of my favourite site) to read some stuff. I came across this articles that talks about one's physical size. Read, thought, reflected.

I am 5" in height and about 42 kilograms heavy. I always say that I'm fat.. stuff like that! When I turned 16, my weight became a big deal to me. Why? Let's just say that I had my internal insecurities and I became scared of the judging society. 

Now that I am 18, I probably had one of the most tremendous realisations in life - I should not care of how small I am, I should have too much of insecurity.

Physically, I look so thin but whenever I face the mirror, what I always see is my swollen stomach. That mentality was wrong. I was so depressed because I was close to being 'stout.' I mean, who attracts stout? Who likes stout people? I WAS WRONG. I admit and I apologise to those who I have offended with my old thinking.I should care about what's going inside that tummy instead of what people might think of it. If that didn't make sense, what I'm trying to say was health over the tangible bit of the body is more important.

I used to feel a little awkward whenever being with my high school batch mates because I am usually the smallest. Sometimes, I feel ashamed of attending events because I won't get recognised because I am so short.

One time, I went to a fast food place to buy something to eat. Someone was in front of me, I was waiting at the back and then at the back of me was a pretty big man. It was my turn, I wonder why the cashier didn't serve me but served the man behind me. Then I realised, he didn't see me. I felt like walking away out of anger that time but I did not because I needed food! After serving the man behind me, only then he saw me. He apologised but I still feel a little annoyed. I was quite disappointed by the cashier but on top of that, I was much disappointed with what I look like.

After too much insecurity, reflection and self-exploration, then I realised: yes, I should care of what others think of me but I have to be myself in every possible way that I can. I am small, okay?

But hey, I've got brains and above everything, awesome mind and positive attitude are the most important.

People may have a small amount of right to judge but no one could ever define us by just looking at us.

Bullying can never and will never put us down because we are happy. YES, WE ARE HAPPY.

Pre-winter

I couldn't believe it's winter already! It still feels a little warm inside our house but I'm quite liking it. The weather today is more like I-want-to-stay-in-bed or 'books + (maybe) tea' type of weather.

So, what is on? What is up?

Have I mentioned before that I've started college to learn Design? If not, then this is the time for it!

Yes, I'm doing something related with Design. I wasn't too interested with it before because I'm more of an Arts and Science person but as I get into it, I felt like it is interesting.

In this program, a graduate would be able to produce a good logo or an ad or just a plain illustration but that's not just about it - this program also permits a person to speak what's inside his/her head. As said by one of my lecturers, you don't have to be creative because when you're inside design, it will just come out naturally. You'll work hard for it of course, but the main thing is you tend to think, to explore, to believe and to create something.

It is good, I reckon.

I was scared to go in this program because I don't know how to draw! But my lecturers told me to not worry about it because everything that I need to do is in the computer itself. Okay, that is cool. No drawings!

Even though I've started the course, I'm still excited of the next lessons.

I'll keep everyone update.

Bye!

I'm lazy.

I know, I am! And it's annoying me. Haha!
What has been happening to me?

1.) I'm gonna study a certificate in a college this year. It's part-time. I'm a bit scared but it should be fine, I suppose.

2.) I chose Communications as my degree. It's not final (WHAT IS FINAL TO ME?) but I think it is for me. I just have to take time and do stuff in it and see how I goes.

3.) I'm 18 now! I'm happy. I think it was quite a tradition that people change or think like they're different when they turn 18. I'm not really sure if I'm under a transition or I'm still living like I was 16, 17. I'm happy though about it because I can do stuff I couldn't do when I was younger.

4.) I'm gonna bleach my hair again. The first time I've tried it with a friend days ago, it didn't quite work, although, I liked the outcome. Next week, I'm bleaching it again and apply colour purple.

5.) Magazines attract me so much especially my favourite "Frankie."

I'm really looking forward to meeting new people and doing so much this year.

Bye! :)

Bridget Jones

I just finished watching Bridget Jones: The Edge of Reason. It was the second film of the sequel Bridget Jones. As I've watched the first one, I didn't dig much deep enough to know and go through the characters but as soon as I finally had the chance to finish the second one, I find the characters really, very, fully interesting.

(c) Flickfacts.com

First stop: Daniel Cleaver (played by Hugh Grant)
Of course, Hugh Grant. What else can we say? With the sexy British accent and very endearing tone, I don't think anyone would be able to resist this boss. However, I don't think those women who look for true, long-lasting and serious love fit for Cleaver. Cleaver is not the man who would be contented sleeping with one lady. Yes, he is just after s*x. To be honest, I don't understand those just-after-sex people and since I don't thoroughly understand them, I'm not going to talk about it.

Secondly, Bridget Jones (played by Renéé Zellweger)
The main character, the socially awkward, the Bridget Jones. Bridget Jones is quite an awkward being, an unsettled woman who thinks and overthinks about almost everything in life. Whenever the film shows that she is heartbroken or feeling down, she just does nothing but get fat and be as broke as she could be. Sometimes, a little positive but most of the time NOT. I personally think that I've been through this but I'm looking forward to being positive all the time. Spending time with yourself, just feeling depressed can sometimes cause you to be smarter that what you usually were.
Bridget is a shy type, and almost filled with slip-up in the movie. But it makes her up - the awkwardness, the overthinking and the mistakes made her a little more intelligent than what she was.

Thirdly and the point of this post: Mark Darcy (played by Colin Firth)
Colin Firth - I just realised that he is cute. Mark Darcy - I just realised that he is an ideal man, my ideal man. Nothing beats a man in a suit with a degree and an awesome, heart-melting smile (for me). He's just perfect, ya know? I think if I'm gonna have a man in my life, I would choose the one who's alike him - of course, the suit and the smile. Mark Darcy is a patient and loving boyfriend. There was this scene in the movie where he was saying "I love you" to Bridget almost in front of a group of teenagers yelling "lame" at him. To be honest, I'll also feel a bit unsettling in that position like what Mark felt. But whatever! What the heck? He just took the risk and even shouted "I love you" just to talk to Bridget. This Mark Darcy is truly irreproachable. I hope this type of man exists.

Changes: Bring it on, 2013!

It’s the New Year (Like 7 days ago but still…) I’m not going to talk about my resolution or whatever you may call it (I don’t usually follow them anyway). Instead, I am going enumerate the (hopefully) changes that I am planning to do this 2013!

First on the list and the most that I prioritise is.. I’m not going to let anything or anyone ‘cause me mental distress again (University stuff is exempted). But also, I won’t stress myself even more even though the point when I’m fully breaking down comes.

Physical Changes!

Changing the colour of my hair, I think I’ve announced this one to everybody. Other teenagers are like, I’m gonna bleach my hair today ‘cause I feel like it and I am like: this tremendous event needs a 3-month preparation!

Changing style, maybe? Old old me, can’t make it to the trend. I’ll try to mix and match, be myself with what I wear and make it possible to have awesome attire EVERYDAY.

Nails! Update them as soon as one gets broken.

Be more healthy, of course. Being fit and fab is something that everyone wants!

Update this blog more, of course. And finally, keep awesome people and things coming.

Coolio, are you?

You’re cool. What does this phrase really mean to me? Mean to us? Personally, I think being ‘cool’ is something extraordinary. Extraordinary in my eye, of course! Maybe helping someone in a good way or figuring out something in a not so easy way. Yep, they’re cool. I just don’t understand why other people think they are one when they actually hurt or step on other’s foot. Let me share you a story. I’m not sure if it’s lame but that event was the one that provoked me to think about this.

The other day, we (me and the fam without dad) went to the Plaza to grocery shop and buy some awesome stuff. My sister bought the Harry Potter collection and I bought some chocolate. Yaay! After buying those, my sister bought the ingredients she needs for her Home Economics practical assessment. I decided to stay outside the grocery shop because I was asked to look after the other things we bought. I sat there alone. Bored. So I stood up! Oh, an ice cream shop 7 steps from where I was sitting. I bought cookies and cream, a happy kid indeed! When I came back to where I was sitting, a family (mother, daughter, son [I’m assuming they are siblings]) came to have a seat. The girl was about 7 years old and the boy was probably 10. He looked condescending so it made me think that he’s the elder one. Before leaving to go inside the grocery shop, the mother told the two to not shout and don’t ever fight. She left. Both of them were holding a plastic bag. The boy took out a pair of ballet flats; the girl reacted and shouted, “Hey! They’re mine! The boy didn’t do anything. Actually he did! He moved closer to where his sister was sitting. I think it was on her arm? He hit her. And using those pair of ballet flats, he hit her in the head. The girl just kept on shouting on him. He said, “Give me my shirt!” (since the girl was holding a plastic bag with his shirt) She gave it in exchange for her shoes. He held the shirt in his hands but didn’t give the shoes. He went back to his seat holding the flats. She kept on screaming. The boy dropped the shoes on the floor and told his sister. “Look! I don’t have it!” Scream. Scream. Scream from her. He picked up the shoes and using that, he just continually hit her. After every hit, I can sense, he’s trying to look at me so proud as if saying, “Hey, look at me. I’m suuuuuuuuh cool hitting her.” Everytime he tries to appear in my eyes, I deflect my view. NO. YOU ARE NOT COOL. What makes you think that you are some BADASS being so awesome violating your sister’s right to just be silent on the side? Seeing that, I started to question the mother – how did you raise these children? I probably asked the wrong question. How did the society, the people around them define what’s to be proud or not? Disrespectful much? PLEASE. NO.

I’m lucky (like what I always say). Even though I have a brother who’s nearly like that, he’s still a good man. Even though I have this huge gap between me and my parents, I know that I was raised really well and taught how to act privately and publicly. I know I’m that “Hey, I’m cool” person but not in a way that that boy has shown. And even though I know that I am a little bit annoying (I feel it myself!) I know, somehow, I’m cool in my own way.

I love my cool friends – they always there for me, I know that even I annoy them, I still find myself being in that position where I am advised by them and majority of them are God-fearing people. I love my cool sister. She does the same – being with me through ups and downs, taking a photo with our seedy/wacky/whatever face and letting me know that I’m loved.

Holidays and Goals

It’s the holidays!

I don’t think holidays need to be memorable but things that happened to me during the past holidays seem to be something I could not forget.

I had my very first panic attack. It was during my Year 11 summer holidays. I was a lazy bum and that probably happened to be the reason why I had it. I was just on my bed the whole time watching TV series. The second week (as far as I remember), I got a massive headache. I think I took 3 Panadols that day ’cause that headache won’t leave me alone. Then I felt like my legs are not okay, I couldn’t even walk! My muscles are like lousy and *adjective like that*. The night when I had it, I felt like I’m gonna die, like I don’t wanna sleep because I won’t live another life tomorrow. It sucked.  That was my story. And after that event, I decided to be healthy *OWWWWWW*. I usually walk nowadays and eat a balanced diet.

And for this holidays, I just thought, I need to accomplish stuff (ugh, like what I always plan (eg. Finish my Physics ERT *jokes, it didn’t happen, I crammed*)) But since I’m near finishing school and I’m not that busy to not accomplish anything, I should set a plan for these weeks.

1. Be healthy. Be healthy. Be healthy.

I know people think that I’m skinny. I’m quite am, but hey, I have fat legs and big stomach. Sucks, I know. I bloat A LOT. So maybe, losing 5 kgs. is an okay plan.

2. Decide. Decide. Decide.

I’m still not decided of what I want to do in the future or let’s say for the rest of my life — my university course. I have some preference that I think, I’m 90% into it but that is still not definite. Pros, cons, whatevs, I have to figure it out.

3. Books. Books. Books.

As I’ve been usually saying, I’m engaging myself to books now. So in this holiday, my target is to read at least 3 books. Yaay! Sounds fun fun fun.

4. Photographs and all.

My life, photographs, I need them!

5. Blog. Blog. Blog.

I need someone, something if you like to share my thoughts with. I know people are going to judge but whatevs! Libertyyyyyyy!

2-Day Mixed Proc and Prod

Exams to come next week! Goodness, I'm still not sure if my review was enough to pass my first one tomorrow. Joookes, it seems like I'm just procrastinating the whole time. Hehe. So whilst I was procrastinating this afternoon, I took photos (This is mixed with vanity, too). I'm planning to put this up on my new blog and this should be my first post. Here are some of the photos I've taken. Hehe.

Forgive to fugly photographs.

Okay, I'm just gonna leave it there. No explicit fugly face for this post.

And crap, why am I feeling this chest pain since? Ohmy. :(

Aspire!

It has been a long day. Well, it's actually not but it seems to be. I was just taking a break from doing my school stuff. And I'm pretty sure, it will be a pretty long night. It always is, by the way and to be honest.

I was walking with two of my friends a while ago and we were just talking about our future, our dreams, what do we want for our kids (though I don't want to be married for now neither on the future but we'll see) and just mainly about the future. One said, he doesn't want himself to just be something. And he doesn't want his kids to just be someone who took apprenticeship or something below that. No one wants to. I was just wondering, why do people settle for something for an "Yeah, I'll be alright with working full time on the department store." NO. Is it laziness? Is it because they don't believe themseleves? Or is that because striving hard is just too hard? I don't know but all I know is that, I'm challenged. I'm challenged, I'm having a hard time but I'm striving hard, very hard not to mention. Why? Not only for the reason that I want to be a professional or I want to be known as "The Tine" but because I want to prove to myself that I conquered the whole bloody 4 or maybe 5 years OH NO, 16 years in total and it's all paying. I'M STRONG. I WILL BE.

Day 7 - Your ex-boyfriend, love, crush

I totally forgot that I entered this challenge! But this is a good comeback. :)
Ex-lover? I can't really tell if he's an ex. I can't make it sure to myself that I don't feel anything for him and neither can I confirm that I have moved from it. Just to be sure for this post though, I think what I'm feeling is nothing. Well, not nothing at all. I feel plain and fine. I'm not into that stuff but in case something gets back, then maybe I'll feel it again (or he will). But yea, I'm going to write about that person. I'll call him Kay.

Hi, Kay! I miss you and I miss you a lot. I blogged about you last time, have you seen it? Yea, you haven't but that's okay. But for the record, not a single neither a thousand even a million blog posts can express how much I am deeply under your spell and not even a single word can explain how much grief I feel for myself, for not giving us a chance. It was a mistake I would never ever ever forget and will always regret. I love you seems to be a cliché but I don't care, I love you.
Damn, have I been showing superb drama here?

I wish some time, maybe if we were really meant together, you will and fate will find our way. I don't wanna talk about the "if not"bit. I don't know how to approach you, I don't know how to talk to you anymore. But if it's really not for us, I'll be happy for you. I miss you. I miss the before. I miss us. I'll miss you. Let destiny hold this for us. BUT I'LL PRAY.

'Til here, AAA. ☺

Weekend General Update

When did I last blog? I can't remember but the past few days had been a roller coaster ride (inspired by the roller coaster I didn't have the guts to ride on @ Seaworld)

So Thursday? I thought the day would just flow fine. But that's just what I thought. A fight happened and I did nothing but walk on our backyard and just do my schoolworks (actually, procrastinate). I checked out blogs, posted photographs, etc. I have no idea how to solve that problem so I remained just like the usual.

Friday, I woke up at 6. IT'S OUR SEAWORLD TRIP! I know I something yet unsolved was there for me, the problem that occurred the day before that but I told myself to just have fun on the day. I couldn't do anything. The whole day, I was with my friends. As I went home, it feels quiet but everyone treated me fine. I went into my room, just checked my twitter and Facebook account then slept at 7:30 PM. I was quite tired that day and the next day of that, I have somewhere to go.

Saturday, I opened my eyes at 7 AM but got up by 8. My father, brother and sister were watching the opening of London Olympics as I woke up. I missed the one for Australia but I didn't miss the one from Philippines. :) It was good. 8-9, I sorted myself out. From 9, I started to walk from our house to the mall where we were suppose to meet. We ate to where we usually eat and as usual, it was soooo good (except for their sauce, it changed!!!) We had fun, basically! As I went home, there the wrong thing goes. Something I can't explain through this post. I wish though as I am writing this, everything is fine. :(

But I don't think those worries should be a hindrance of my heavy school load. I am not really busy, I am just too lazy to update and accomplish everything.

And myself ~

I really like talking about myself. It's like I can answer a hundred of About Me section on a site.

Hi! Physically? I'm small. I have short but muscle-y legs. I don't consider myself fat but my weight is not entirely proportional with my height (and sometimes, I hate that). But what can I do? Nothing but enjoy it! Sometimes, I really feel inferior that I'm small but usually I just make the most advantage out of it.

Green is my favourite colour and coming next to it is red. And I have many favourite movies. I like Jane Austen, John Green and Neil Gaiman books. I love photography (I'm an aspiring photographer, actually) and I like reading books, too. I like Indie music and sometimes, Hip-hop stuff.

I always appear to be busy, I don't know why. I'm nocturnal and that explains my midnight tweets and other acts. I like clingy people. I think people who think that you are special within their lives are amazing. I like being treated as a close or a best friend but I treat one as my my my best friend.
I'm quite scared of being badly judged. I don't know what has been my orthodox regarding judgments. But usually, I accept them. I'm a pessimist. I always think that I'm gonna fail or I'm gonna drop my grades or our scientific experiment won't work out. High expectations may lead to failure could be one of my excuse why I'm a negative thinker.

I think pictures and letters are priceless. I hate losing. I'm a warrior in the making.

From Exam

Meeeeeeh. I, with the other hundreds of students did the test I've been talking about before. Sad 'cause I know I won't be able to use it and sad that I'm gonna fail. (Yes, a real pessimist here). I was suppose to take a photo of what I wore but I already removed my shoes as I stepped inside the house. Mehehehe. And with that saying, this is now my official, very updated blog (Does that connect? HAHA).

Today? Did the test. UQ is really an awesome school. From the buildings to the people and the whole thing, I can tell, that's the uni I wanna go (and hopefully will).
Okay, so I think I did this exam for the experience. So far, I'm pretty okay with the course preference but I'm still having a bit of a hesitation to some of them.

That's it for the moment. Ohhh, I still need to do the challenge!

I don't wanna lose it

I hate how much I respect people who can't just let me go and respect me back.
I was pretty pissed right now and I couldn't be any relieved so I had to blog about this.

The event that made pissed me off is too shallow. No, the other person involved who I respect the most is too shallow that I can't take how much miserable I am feeling right now. I wonder how she feels when she speaks very dismissive about me. And with that, I'm telling that this hasn't happened just now, it happened so many times before.

And the fact that that person is part of my family? It just breaks me.

To Do: July 23

I'm missing school today (NOT FOR VANITY!!!) But because of that Physics I blogged about yesterday.
I really hope that I can be productive today 'cause if not, I'm gonna take the risk of rushing things, pulling time allotted for my sleep AND WORST, FAILING THIS.
But no, that's not gonna happen!

And to start, here I have my timetable for the day.
10AM-12AM: Physics-related stuff.
12AM-1PM : Watch Ellen? Chill or have a shower.
1PM-4PM: UMAT stuff.
4PM-4:30PM: Probably chill? (Men, I told myself before I write this to make time for photoshoot. Fail, as you can see)
4:30PM- potentially 12MN: HARDCORE PHYSICS (but will check blogs, eat between that time)

So, how's that? :)

To Do: July 9

It's Monday again! And as what I've said to my past post, it's another semester and not to mention, the most important one.

Since I really need to be coordinated and time-wise, I've set a time plan for my night and I also told myself that I'm gonna be taking a mini hiatus from other SNS. See, I've received really low marks last term (not actually that low but not seems not enough for me). It really made me feel bad and sad that I blamed myself for not focusing and spending my time wisely.

For today, what I want to accomplish is the first bit of my Physics assessment piece and a bit of Math. Potential bedtime I'd say shall be 12 midnight otherwise I'm gonna suffer another sleep-deprived punishment (just like the usual).

Shall post another thing later, bye for now!

Just began.

Tomorrow marks the beginning of another semester (another term for mental destitution) for me.
And today marks the beginning of my SNS hiatus. Not that I'm not gonna update everything but I'm gonna be active updating my blogs.


I just thought some people are obnoxious. I'm not a hater, I think I'm feeling a bit cranky today. But oh well, what can I do, this is how the coordination of my mind and heart works.

That's the bad side. Happy to announce but my motivation for studying is quite coming back! I have a week to finish my Physics assessment and this whole term (3 months?) to prove myself. From tomorrow until August, I'll have 3 very important test: QCS, UMAT and my license. I really hope I could fit everything in. No, I will fit and do my best in everything.

'Til soon!